8.06.2006
on endings and pending endings.
the program's over, and i'm back home missing my friends. that sounds sad and almost pathetic - rest assured, that's not all i'm doing. i'm not one to sulk, and i've been really busy this past week. trips back to beantown (three of them already!), one to newport, good times with old friends, a baseball game (holy shit my sister sang "god bless america" at the pawsox game!), a party.... really, it's been a great week.
but i'm thinking about brandon and his signature phrases, emily and her adorability, caitlin and her uncanny ability to get my humor, and everyone else for everything else they gave me over these last two months. the thirty-or-so of us will never, ever be in the same place at the same time again, and as sad as that is, i'm sitting at my computer chair appreciating it all.
you know what my favorite parts may have been? sitting in my room, some smooth music on, and no fewer than seven others sitting on my bed, brandon's bed, on the floor, leaning against the wall, laughing. we went to a sox game, we took group walks to the public garden at 3am, we went on a whale watch (oh, wait....), saw the boston pops, saw blue man group, had maybe the greatest fireworks experience any of us will ever have, and what will i take from all this? late nights with soft lighting, music and company. nothing will ever beat those nights.
and as much as i owe to them for making these last 8 weeks as great as they have been, i owe these last two weeks to someone else. i've found myself in some of the most uncomfortable and awkward situations recently, leading to some of the most difficult decisions i've ever had to make, but with the bad comes the good, and the good has been great. i've been going through some tough times, as has she, and it's amazing that we found each other when we did. we know where this is going, and it's hard to watch the clock tick down to the end of this experience. but we're both level-headed, reasonable people, and we both see this for what it is.
hopefully we'll look back on this with a smile to appreciate it for what it is, too. i think we will. so, thanks.
but i'm thinking about brandon and his signature phrases, emily and her adorability, caitlin and her uncanny ability to get my humor, and everyone else for everything else they gave me over these last two months. the thirty-or-so of us will never, ever be in the same place at the same time again, and as sad as that is, i'm sitting at my computer chair appreciating it all.
you know what my favorite parts may have been? sitting in my room, some smooth music on, and no fewer than seven others sitting on my bed, brandon's bed, on the floor, leaning against the wall, laughing. we went to a sox game, we took group walks to the public garden at 3am, we went on a whale watch (oh, wait....), saw the boston pops, saw blue man group, had maybe the greatest fireworks experience any of us will ever have, and what will i take from all this? late nights with soft lighting, music and company. nothing will ever beat those nights.
and as much as i owe to them for making these last 8 weeks as great as they have been, i owe these last two weeks to someone else. i've found myself in some of the most uncomfortable and awkward situations recently, leading to some of the most difficult decisions i've ever had to make, but with the bad comes the good, and the good has been great. i've been going through some tough times, as has she, and it's amazing that we found each other when we did. we know where this is going, and it's hard to watch the clock tick down to the end of this experience. but we're both level-headed, reasonable people, and we both see this for what it is.
hopefully we'll look back on this with a smile to appreciate it for what it is, too. i think we will. so, thanks.
:: posted by Collin, 3:01 PM